Bahhh!!!

Gosh im getting soooooo anoyed by my dad!!!When watching a movie he is the ONE and ONLY!!!One who makes such big huge huge huge fuss about what is happening in the movie...bahhh!! arghhhh~!! and Phyll's computer keys are getting me anoyed!! lolx... gosh im so damn bored.. it's my school holidays and all i've done is went on a hut for my future college,eat alot,and dreamt of weird dreams...My friend has a party coming up next next week on the 7th..and its sort of the last time i'll ever see 2 of my friends...cause one is migrating and never coming back ever again..and another is moving school and never moving back again..

How depressing...well that's not the only depressing thing..the fact that im some how grounded still-i think im not sure...im juz scared to ask- i hav to suffer yet another holiday at home. And i never know how long im being grounded for..AND~!!!I don't know what im being grounded for..I don't bother asking cause Im gonna stay grounded either wayz-my parents heads are as hard as rocks..they don't giv a shiz about wether im suffering or not...all as long as they get their way-And if i try asking I might get in a pointless argument anywayz...I hate it!!!!

I feel so stressed trying to study as much as I can during skool dayz and I even force myself to go to the last week of school no matter how tired i was...-even my teacher missed the last week of school cause she was sick...lucky her!-also alot of my classmates missed the last month of school!!! except the field trip...bah!!!i feel sooo anoyed..I need to hav a stress free holiday and instead of having that im being grounded...

If i tried asking my parents if i could go out with friends my mom wud say"why must go out? why can't ask them to come here?"Gosh!!she'd giv me that anoying police officer tone!!She can't even talk to me like im her daughter!!I'd juz yell at her and walk off..but truly I don't want to spend my time at home..even with friends! there's a reason why they made malls! to go and hav fun there! but my mom would never understand cause she'd juz as stubborn as my dog!!!gosh Im sooo pissed right now......lalalala~



im listening to mariah carey now..Its such a pretty song..wheee~


Any ho~ I wish things were much easier..I hate my life!! I feel so stressed...I want to go out...... I feel so jailed.. my stupid parents wasted and ruined almost 2 or 3 years of my life!!! that i can't ever get back..and they tell me things like it's for my own good... Well I don't know how they are looking at it..But I feel sooo much hate for them when looking back at all this!! I wasn't even able to celebrate my 17th bday this year!!!Nor 16th!!and I don't know wat they are going to do to me to ruin my 18th!!.... And they also told me that one day I will understand why they did this...I don't!!! I seriously don't know and understand how taking the days out of my years is doing any good for me!! All I've ever felt was being prisoned and kept away from daylight...this year was like me being on parole..I could go bak to skool... but cause they think I did something wrong AGAIN!!! then i get grounded...but The bad thing is..I still hav to go to school...


WELL THEY CAN KISS MY FREGGIN ASSS!!!!FOR ALL I CARE...

until next time..bye~