Stop trying to read me! for 'The older one'

Just cause you watch those tv series doesn't mean you can read my face!!

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Stop treating me as if I don't know how to take care of myself -.- ishhh.. I hate how you favor the goody one so much more... so what I've been ...a..err... I've had my bad times b4.. I've learnt from my mistakes..If you think you've never made any and wanna repeat history all over again fine do so...You treat me like a rebel bitch I'll bring all the way around and let history slap you in the face all over again

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You've caused this to urself! If you knew how to handle us and not be soo freaking hard headed or even jus be a lil more open then maybe I could have turn out better not living with some regrets still in hand? Now I feel like crudz. Tho you treated me like crap last time I still maintained some things in tact and never did anything tht bad! I didn't need you to help me! Through all my feeling and thoughts! you were never there for me

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I envy-ed all the good relationships I see my other friends having between them and the 'older ones' I don't exactly hate how I've turned out.But I hate what I had to go through.You think everyone has to go through with this?? You it was normal to treat me the way you did? There was a time that I felt happiest when I was away from it all...The dam best times of my life without any of you! I loved it...Cause not being with all of you made me feel more safe and secure...I wouldn't have to feel like I'm in prison..Even when the place sucked... I still enjoyed it more than where I was..A dark place that I'd jump away from.. Till today.. If I ever looked back.. I still can't thank you for what you did... Honestly... They tell me that I'd thank you one day for it...But that day still hasn't come... I'd probably never thank you for it.. Cause its one part of my life that ruined our relationship... You have no one else to blame but urself too...How could I ever lean on you for help when all I felt was fear from you? How Could I have ever come to you for help when I can't trust you? How can I be honest with you when I know you could never handle it without bursting out in anger and violence? Guess I know why I am who I am today from such great ....ermmm teaching skills?..... -.-

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I can't say what , And I can't say who

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But If you're smart.. You'd know what I'm talking bout... gtg now chaoz~

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XOXO's