Thursday, October 1, 2009

Let by gones be by gones

Yesterday~ went to buffet dinner wif ma sis~
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While she ate.. I'm still on my diet...extended to 10 days since Sunday? or Monday
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I ate fruits T.T while she ate...FOOD~
Cam whore moment!!!


Nerdy smiles~btw pics wud be clearer if u clicked it bigger=.=

Ignore my retarded finger pls~ =P
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My fingers are sexy kayyy!?? hahahah jkjk~ XD
Posers~
Emo shitz...
My sis~ hahaha she looked like a lil girl~
*wink stare*
I hav a stapler thru my belly... long story~ lazy to tell =P

Yesterday i baked cupcakes and cookies...[too free]
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But my will is strong I will not eat wrong!!
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unlike my dear lovely sister=.=! [who was also suppose to be on a diet since yesterday,and today...but FAIL]
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I didn't any of it~ instead I brought them to school~..my class finished all=.=... everything gone in 2 days ni...no worries~ I'll bake more SOON

My dad's wallet thingy...rob him!...
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grrrr
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pui...
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thiz is wrong~
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anyhooo~
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I was soooooo bloody annoyed!
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u noe why???
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OF COURSE YOU DON'T..[REALLY] NOE WHY!
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I TELL U Y~~~
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I'm getting so annoyed! Always getting accused of something I didn't do!!!
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You said to put the past behind! And yet you seem to always bring it up!
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Do you want me to bring up about what 'A GREAT SO-CALLED-MOTHER' you were!?
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FFFFFFFFF******FFFFFFF******~
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I don't wanna hate you...But I wish i didn't have to love you either!!!!!You don't even know how much pain you've cost me!I admit I had hurt you too,BUT NOT AS BLOODY MUCH AS U HAV DONE TO ME!!The rest of them had your back,while I was left alone to be ganged up on!...I really hate you now...
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I hate you to tears!!
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I know you still wished you never had me!!!Well now I wish I was never born!!Especially to you!
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I also know it's still hard for you to love since the last time you said it!Everyone thinks you're just being a mother,and deep inside you love me...BULLFUCK!They don't know you the way I do!!! You're never here when I needed you,in fact you don't know how to be here for me! You don't know how to be a mother! You love the rest more than me because of how I turned out!I really tried hard to be someone you'd love!
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Trust me i tried!...So hard..But as always... It's never good enough for you,I really wanted you to love me..
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At first we were getting better,but then jus 1 person said something!....ONE FUCKING PERSON! And you had to accuse me again! AND BRING UP THE FUCKING PAST!! And remind me about what you did to me last time!! EVERYTHING!!You made me feel every pain you cost me!
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Don't think I haven't forgotten those words you said to me! The things you did to me!!
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You'll never understand me...You can't even love your own flesh and blood..
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watever
I hate you...I wish you weren't my mother...I wish you'd jus given me away ..Like you wanted to

2 comments:

Carson L. said...

hmm...happy then emo..


just cheer up kay?

~♥ ~l!l @ng3L~♥ ~ said...

=/ tryna beeee~